Thanksgiving Day

Exhausting. I think that one word can describe any major family holiday gathering.

However, this Thanksgiving holiday was a bit different from any other. I left work yesterday at 3pm and traveled back "HOME". We arrived around 4am. Lunch was actually peaceful, mom was happy, no tense moments at the table. :) It was a nice change from the norm.

I missed home. I think I wanted to avoid coming down because of that. I am glad that I don't have to deal with my ex and his wife anymore. It's a bit unnerving, but I've realized I may still feel some animosity towards that woman.Heheh. That woman. She somehow manages to make me feel so insecure and inadequate. It's amazing! She's a nurse, so every time she sees my children, she tends to want to find something wrong with my children, as if to say I don't take care of them or something. Argh.

Thankfully I only have to deal with them on holidays. :)

Feels like a Blogging Night

There really is no way to get through life without conflict and at least some degree of confrontations. However, there's probably nothing that I dread more when it comes to dealing with other members of the human race.

Work is startin' to get to me. Well not so much work as those I work with. Being in charge isn't all it's cracked up to be. I don't like it. :(

I keep telling myself that I'm gaining invaluable experience...and let me tell you, it's not helping matters one bit. lol.

The thing is, I know what I need to do to resolve some of these issues, I'm just too chickenshit to do it ... or perhaps timid is a better word. Either way, I need to work up to it. And I will, eventually.

The drive home sucked too. There's nothin worse than having a bad day and then not having anyone to tell about said bad day. I called my best friend who had subsequently had his own "not so great day" so I didn't even try to vent. I waited to see if he needed to vent, which he didn't do, and decided that it was best to talk at a later time. *sigh* Then I realized how lonesome life can really be. Bleh. Not a good thing to do.

Oh well, things will get better...they have to or I'll scream :)