Christmas Eve

Christmas # 28 for me this year. I'm sad to say that the bliss of the holiday season has diminished over the years. I don't know if it's the commercialism of it all or if it's the family spats and dirty looks, glares, and subtle implications of discontent regarding my ways of mothering that I get from my own dear mother, or if it's being single yet another Christmas. Most likely it's a "capirotada", a combination of all those things. I'm at a loss for ways of resolving this perturbation and ickiness between me and my parental units and siblings. Grrr. There that's a little better, wait no, maybe it's not. Grrr. Yeah, I'm right, not helping one bit. *sigh*